Fell off the wagon huge time

Sw:366 LW:190 CW:216 I’ll begin with my chart

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Everything began when I went on holiday for Xmas and cheated a lot. ever since it’s been a continuous pattern in the incorrect instructions and I can’t appear to recuperate. It began as “as long as I do not pass by 195” and gradually however definitely I’m accepting a growing number of. Simply had an awful lunch and supper and understand the scale is gon na check out 220.

I have actually lost total inspiration however do not wan na be the very same fat person that I was. Any guidance from individuals that have struck the very same obstacles?